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CAN I SAY IT?!

It’s 2020. A lot is way more different from what we though this year would be. A new decade, where things should have changed. A lot should have moved forward, but in all honesty, a lot just seems a little more backwards than before…

To make it a little bit more clear, I’m not talking about the big movements such as “Black Lives Matter”, “Protests Against Violence Toward Women”, “Diversification In the Media World”…All of these are gonna be some hot topics which will define 2020 for a lot of people, not to say the whole world. But one disturbing phenomenon I’m actually talking about is “Cancel Culture”…Some sort of ideology that one should get “canceled” for being, well, ignorant…

We have a lot of celebrities who we’ve seen these past few months deal with this situation, and to be honest, a lot of them fell into the rabbit hole, because others pulled them in. Plus, aren’t we tired of checking everyone down to the core, as if we, our own selves, don’t say things that others maybe would be taken aback when hearing. I do get it that there were a lot of people who did deserve their “cancellation”, some of them protected by “also celebrity” friends, but the fun facts is that this so called “culture” isn’t hitting only the rich and the famous, but it has become a part of our normal, day-to-day society, and it’s quite scary how people are so ready to “cancel” you, just because of a dumb joke or your misinformation over a topic or something…

Everything is so ever changing at a speed where people find it hard to catch up, but we shouldn’t forget that sometimes it’s nice to walk with a normal paste, and just be there, be present with and for each-other. That’s what we should do: EDUCATE one another related to topics where education is fundamental, instead of being so quick to judge and dismiss.

And also, we have to listen before we arrive into a conclusion. A lot of celebrities came out with apologies for what they said when young and dumb. Tweets and jokes related to black people, the LGBTQ+ community, disabled people as well, which of course are some very emotional topics to be joking about, but as I wrote “young and dumb”. And we can’t be so quick to judge unless we see some redemption in action, not only in words, but in order for that to happen, second chances need to be given.

So prior to “canceling”, how about communicating, learning and growing.

Aren’t we TIRED?

It’s really funny, how even tho, most of the time right now we are spendin’ it laying around, going from the bed to the couch, and repeating it like it’s our job to do so, somehow, I hear in my thoughts, and in convos with my friends that: “WE. ARE. TIRED”

I remember, that before this whole outbreak I used to complain so much about the fact that “I had so much to do”, but in a sort of way, still managed to find the time about everything. Studying, doing live shows at RTSH, going out, editing videos, taking photos, editing them, but now…HELL. I ONLY am finding a willingness to do HALF of what I did, even tho, I am supposed to be “well rested” ( that doesn’t really happen when you’re an overthinker, but never say never ).

I am so tired, even my tiredness is tired.
– Someone really funny said this.

Anyway, the important thing right now we all have to keep in mind, is that it is better to be safe and tired, then going out, breaking rules, putting yourself at risk, and getting tired “for a reason”. Like, for real, I’d rather be tired and go to my own bed, in my own terms, then to go out, get something something we’re protecting ourselves from and be put along tubes that go into places you wouldn’t want them to go.

But I still can’t deny the fact, that the whole online school thing is a big pile of a crazy mess and that trying to entertain yourself, at a point, it gets tough. I remember, a friend of mine said to me once “You Nini make yourself laugh in a way that even I, an only child, am not able to make myself laugh like this”. Saying this, comes to show, that I tire myself from makin’ it laugh, but really have gotten in the whole “let’s make others laugh too” game lately, and this one has taken it really seriously.

So you wanna know something. I am kinda happy being tired, because of doing something that in my “normal days” would complain for not having the time to do it. So there you go: #amtiredofdoingnothingbutalsolovingit

Ps: Doing nothing means: Cooking, watching Netflix, eating, editing videos, having assignments , but all of this feels “like having nothing to do”, just because we’re all doing it from home. And there’s nothing like that stress of having something to do, but sayin’ “I got time”, just because your lame a*s thinks that sitting around your home somehow will affect your life in having more time to do things. #yeahright #crazy

“The Loud One” is here…

“If you were to tell me this would have come true, “hell NAH” I would have said…”
Nini Feshti – The Loud One

Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken.
— Oscar Wilde.

Let me introduce myself: Kostandin Feshti a.k.a Nini Feshti. A 17 year old highschool student, also TV Host at the National Television of Albania ( gonna write about this soon :p ), part-time “unneeded opinionist of the society” ( we already have one to many ), tv fashion-icon in the making and also “The Loud One”.

I have been wanting to create a blog of mine for quite some time now, but somehow never managed to sit down and actually think about it, but here we are, January 24, 12;17 am, giving birth to “The Loud One”. For you who don’t know me, this is actually how a lot of people in my life would describe me to you…Actually THE LOUDEST ONE, but I ain’t complaining, cause you know what: IT IS THE TRUTH ( and most of the time am too tired to say otherwise so let’s deal with it )…

From my early days until now, I have not managed to find a balance to how much I say, how loud am I saying it, and whether I should even say it or not ( taking 17 years to find that balance out, and still counting ). From my laugh ( which cannot be put into words how annoying(ly funny) it is, to my sweet comments about others, to my shade throwing skills, to my ability to be an open book to people, some of them who are not even interested in reading A book, let alone “mine”, everything doesn’t really come in moderation, but hey, there is no such thing as “perfect” ( Whose with me #yass#louderfortheonesintheback )…

Even in my family I like to call myself “the black sheep” of the holy foursome, because my sister usually rides along with most things said, my dad doesn’t really say that much, but when he does, he be putting out the dots on the end of a lot of sentences, and my mum is to blame for the machinery of arguments that I am. So you kinda get the idea who is the one always justifying himself, pulling out all the cards to be right and not being able to “Just. Be. Quite“…But I think we have come to a point, where praying wouldn’t do much, schooling me either, so we are at a “let’s love him for who he is” time, and honestly, most of the time I love being loved for who I am, cause there are times where I get a bit too much, even for me.

But here is the moment when the blog comes in handy. I share my opinions, stories ( that can be shared without me being entitled to characteristics and topics I don’t want to be messed with ) , y’all laugh a bit, but also be amazed at the ability of mine to be serious ( I can do that :p ) and we all just get happy together, but I would actually love if we all GET LOUD TOGETHER…

Much love ( for now :p ), your Loud One…